Call and Recall

I ingest you in secret

stuffing my face with thoughts of you

before getting rid of you in my mind

altogether

I continue this process

binging and purging

thinking and absenting

so i don't love you too much

and don't allow myself too much

maybe if i don't think of you too much

i won't become fat with your love

binging and purging

will you love me better skinnier?

or do I starve myself of my own volition

some masochistic pleasure

from abstaining from your love

binging and purging